Again I was given crumbs to feed my starving heart. The lesson? To be grateful for the crumbs.
I have had the sadness to live through the paralleling of the story of the Canaanite woman who was tested in the power of her faith as told in Matthew 15:21-28. She was persistent in asking Jesus to heal her demon-possessed child. Jesus repeatedly appears to deny her request, but in the end, she receives it.
For me, its been a separation of years. My heart has been wrenched, betrayed, broken, but not once has my faith been tested. The trials I had endured before that prepared me for this long journey.
Today, I received crumbs. It is agonizing and hurtful when I had hoped for more. I needed more. But crumbs it is. So be it. Thank you Jesus, I continue to trust you. Your will be done.
It took me a minute or two to decide to respond as if I had been given a smorgasbord fit for The King. I did. I was met with the restrictions put back in place. But thats not where this story ends for in the meantime, God is working on me and I am open and willing to receive His guidance.
Just as she believed in His power to say the word and the miracle would be done and did not stop asking, neither will I.
I asked God last night why I never get to skirt around problems and struggles. He left me to mull it over as I slept.
He gave me His answer first thing this morning.
Things do look better in the morning. Thank you Jesus.
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