Pinky swear. Pinky swear? An eternally binding act of hooking pinky fingers together in an attempt to seal the deal of a promise that has been made. Like a covenant. A bonding. Two hearts becoming one. A wedding. Forever sealed in the eyes of God.
The brilliance dazzled me and it more than I had ever imagined. I needed to lift my right hand to shield my eyes. There was Jesus. There was God. I was supported by the Holy Spirit. I had found my way home. At long long last. I was enveloped in the greatest love I have ever known. It was beyond the realms of fairytales or sonnets. I stood in the GLORY of GOD! Just like it says it John 11:40 "Jesus saith unto her, Said I not unto thee, that, if thou wouldest believe, thou shouldest see the glory of God?" And then the alarm went off and I awoke. With my eyes yet to open, I was immersed in a cacophony of emotions. Love. Joy. Grace. Peace. And then such a lonesome homesickness that rippled throughout my entire being. Mourning threatened to set in. I wanted to go back. It was so beautiful. He really is I AM. My soul has waited for this since before I took my first breath.
I reluctantly opened my eyes and looked into the eyes of my dog waiting not quite patiently enough for me to let him out. I heard in my heart "he needs you". I sat up and looked at my husband sleeping soundly after working way to many hours providing for us. I heard in my heart "he needs you". I quietly shut the door where my granddaughters slept and I heard in my heart "they need you". I sat and read my meditations and my bible and I heard in my heart "you need this". I glanced at my phone and saw the unread messages and I heard in my heart "they need you". My children, even grown, I heard in my heart "they need you". I prayed on the paintings I am tasked by the Holy Spirit to create and I heard in my heart "many need you". Why? Because I have an anointing from our Father to deliver this message. "You were supposed to be born. Jesus loves you. God is good. It's time."
John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
Until then... I play the song I Can Only Imagine by the band Mercy Me written by Marshall Millard and remember...
" Surrounded by Your glory What will my heart feel? Will I dance for You, Jesus Or in awe of you be still? Will I stand in Your presence Or to my knees will I fall? Will I sing hallelujah Will I be able to speak at all? I can only imagine..." Until then, blessings and I am glory bound. I believe. Do you?
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